Running on gluten-free carbs…

A frustratingly slow start…

Three days into 2012 and already I’ve found myself in tears over running.  Not because I can’t do it.  I just haven’t.  And the Virgo, perfectionist, running junkie inside of me is screaming for a run.

Screaming.

After a very long ride home yesterday in some pretty nasty weather, the plan was to go to the gym and at least get in a run on the treadmill.  But, lack of sleep and fatigue from the car trip made that the last thing I wanted to do.

And then…after bypassing the opportunity for my first run of the season, instead…I fussed and obsessed over the fact that I have not logged any mileage yet in the New Year.  It truly bothered me.  And I knew…I knew I should have gotten on that treadmill yesterday.  I should have at least gotten in a short run if nothing else.  In the grand scheme of things, no matter what is going on in my life…I always, always feel better after a run.  If I’m tired, I wake up.  If I’m angry, I lighten up.  If I need to think, I get a lot off my mind.  And so on.

I had a lot pulling at me yesterday and even my roommate told me to go do my run.  That I would feel better.  But I’m a stubborn person and I refused.  And so…here I sit on the third day of the year with goal of 500 miles…and nothing to show for it yet.

Frustrating?  You bet!

So, it’s time for an attitude adjustment.  I have a goal.  And to reach that goal, certain things need to happen.  And I can make all the excuses I want, but I also need to be accountable to my goal.  So…taking a deep breath and starting fresh.

500 miles.  It’s definitely obtainable.  And I will not beat myself up should it feel like I’m not getting there.  I know I can do it.  And I know I will do it.  I’m just impatient.  And I’m really bad about beating myself up if I feel I’m doing nothing toward the goal.

That being said…I start today.

2012…let’s hit the ground running…together!

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2 responses

  1. I’m up to about 3.5 miles.

    Going to try for another 3-5 before Sunday night…I need to get my sorry butt signed up for some races too! (right now, I’m only signed up for one race in may – Rock-n-Roll Portland 1/2.

    Yeah, some serious getting-on-the-ball is needed in these parts too.

    January 6, 2012 at 9:18 pm

    • I totally need to run a race with you!! I need to get out there and visit the area and we’ll find one to do. 🙂 I want to do a Rock-n-Roll 1/2 sometime. But it looks my half marathons this year will be the Mini Marathon in Indianapolis, the Indianapolis Women’s Half Marathon, the Team Ortho Minneapolis Half Marathon, and probably…the Hershey’s Half Marathon. We’ll see…

      January 6, 2012 at 9:28 pm

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